It seems when your down the hits just keep coming. 1st I lost 3(or at least thats an estimate) of my friends I really wonder why, Followed by I realize Ive been somewhat toyed with in my feelings and finally I happen to witness an event which I REALLY wish I didnt have to see/know about it to make it worst there are others who witness it as well.
True goes to the saying that when it rains it pours. Perhaps that is just my fate as some poor judgement/choice from myself may have affected to those around me. Somehow even before things happen I somehow already knew it was coming but somehow I couldnt stop it from happening as I dont know the root of the problem. I truely treat everyone so sincerely and from the bottom of my heart I know that is true.
But as a saying I once told my friend some people are meant to stay while some just come by. But no matter what I wish it could be resolve but I dont even know what is happening.
Somehow somewhere deep inside me i thought i lost all type of emotions I try to reason things out as much as I can with logic. Apparently im still left with feelings. Feelings of Sadness and Despair. It maybe my fate to suffer in this life. However I'll appreciate the remainer of my friends and I'll hope for a better tomorrow.
Its so hard to forget someone whom you are thinking about everyday, every moment that deep down Im hurting like crazy but Im powerless to do anything.
"I rather let myself down, Give up on everything than to betray those i hold dear to myself"
Somehow some people around me can feel the aura around me but i'll try my best to keep it in control. Seriously everyone have more than enough problems than to come and bother about my problems.
Looking at the bright side. I still have tomorrow to live for. I will try my best to appear happy and I will still be around when my friends need me.
